~~ happy happy ~~

14/12/08 ...

I wake up early in the morning on that day because my flight is 10.50am but i have to check in before 3 hours . So i need get every thing done at 6.30am . Actually i need to wake up at 5.30 but i wake up really very early <> haha ... Maybe i am too nervous . haha ... nervous ? Am i joking ? Should be very happy not nervous . haha ... I just want the time pass like i drink a glass of water . haha ..

After final pack the baggage . Then we try to carry .. wao , confirm over weight !!! how ? Aunt say : Try check in see whether they let or not .. But the back bag is very very very heavy .. and the big plastic also very heavy .. aiks !! But is happy lah ~~ hahaha

When check in ... The bag is 26 kg ... wao .. 6 kg extra !! haha .. But they let my bag go through .. haha .. luckily ... if not my hand luggage will be more more heavy ... haha .. I also don't know how to carry so heavy things and walk so far but still very happy . haha ..Before the duty free is a place that scan people and hand luggage . That time i am sipek sibuk !! coz too many thugs and heavy ! haha ... Lucky they did not stop me .. haha ..

Then i got in the plane and they told us the flight is delay an hour only departure . When i heard this .. oh !! cham ...If delay can i manage to rush to another connected flight !! I will be late !!! Really cham !! When the flight is departure , the plane is shake until very scary ! The 1st time i sit plane with a scare feeling coz the plane is shake left and right while flight up the sky ! so geli ~~ haha .. Between the 13 hours , i am eat , sleep ,eat ,sleep ,eat ,sleep ~~ haha ... Not much thugs can do and sipek sien !! Time so slow and butt so so so so pain !! haha ... The foods in the plane is quite nice .. haha ... 1st time the foods r nice .. haha ... have nasi lemak lagi !! flight from UK nih ... Got nasi lemak !! haha ..

15/12/08

Luckily i am not late when the flight arrived kl .. It is 7.50am ..My connected flight is 8.40am .. Then i rush to the domestic level and find which gate should i go ...Walk fast to the gate and sit down... Feel so so so happy but so so so tired coz of the heavy back bag and big big heavy plastic .. I carry this 2 heavy heavy bag and plastic then walk also no balance .. Luckily i din fall down .. haha ...

At last , reach kt !! haha ... siok nih .. Mummy is waiting outside .. haha ... When i wait my baggage ... Then somethings happen !!!! sui !!!! There is no my baggage !!! After that find out my baggage is lost !!!! lolz ~~~

so so so happy can see my mummy .. haha ... Enjoy a day with her ..Really very happy ~ yeah !! I had so many nice foods in this 2 days .. haha .. so so so full ~~

This 2 days the time is fly not like the day i am in UK and in the plane .. It is so so so so so slow !! slow like the clock no battery ~ haha ... I hope the time pass slower now ~~ so that i can stay here longer ~~ haha ..

k la .. go enjoy 1st ya ~~~

yahoo ~~

yahoo ... Last day ~~ yeah yeah .. going back going back !!!

~ 20 oranges !!!~

Today i had 20 small oranges !! Don't know why i am thinking want to have orange every minutes ! Maybe it is too nice .. haha ... sweet ~~

The fruits in UK is extremely nice ~~ It is nice than Malaysia x100 !! haha .. But but but i love Malaysia more coz there have my lovely ~~ haha ...

Today is the super boring day ~~ whole day ly on the bed ... sleep ? NO NO NO !! I am ly on the bed watching my drama and eat snack and oranges !!! Can u imagine i have 20 oranges in a day !! haha .. Maybe i am too too too boring . I really don't know what to do so just eat eat eat ~~ haha ...

Sien Sien Sien day ~!!

~ A very very boring day ~

~~ very very sien ah ~~ aiks !! ~~

Today i had nice meals . spaghetti pataya with chicken .















Prepared by myself ~~ quite nice ~~ yummy yummy !!

I am very very boring ah !! Left 2 days i am going back to malaysia ~~ yeah !!!

~~ ah !!! very very full ~~

Today i am very very full because i had a lots of foods .. Today i am super bored so from morning wake up eat until evening then sleep ... After wake up had my dinner again .. Now i am super super full .. aiks ~~ very very not feeling well . The feel of too full is very bo siok ah ~~ aiks !!!

Today she back pain again !!! why ? why always like this !!!!! aiks ~~ sad ~~ Hope get well soon !!!

~~ tired tired ~~

Very very tired ~~

I am very very tired today because i keep my messy messy room . Full with book and papers around the room .. haha ...

At last my room be tidy and clean ~~ haha ...

~~ buffet day ~~

Today i am having buffet at red and hot world buffet , Milton Keynes ... This buffet is quite nice but i think not as nice as i had the 1st time . Maybe have b4 then ... hahaha ...

~~ There have a lots a lots of choices of foods .. 120 ++ of choices .. Banyok nya haha ... Today is the last sun i am here .. next sun i am in the plane and back to kt which is my hometown .. yeah , i can see all my lovely there ~~

I am really full and today have a bit stomach ache .. aiks ~~tiring day ~~ I still not yet recover from my tiredness .. aiks .. I am very very very tired !! blur ~~

Happy kelly Happy family ~~

~~ the feeling of exam and now ~

Yesterday i had my exam .. My table number is 7096 ... luckily not 7896 (sipek kao lak ) .. hahaa ..While i stepped in the exam hall . It is a lots of tables because 3 big hall open to one .. Can u imagine how big is the exam hall and how many tables are there ? I think got 5000 to 6000 tables n chair there !!! I find my desk when the examiner allow to go in ... I find from left to right !!! At last i found my desk is in the middle and it is at the 1st one ~~ haha ...

This is the 1st time i stepped into 3 to 1 exam hall . It is really big and a lots a lots of tables there .. haha .. At my desk have my attendance paper sheet for me to fill in and the thick booklet .. When i see the identity paper sheet ... Wa lao eh .. so many things to fill in and need black ink .. lolz .. I only bring blue ink pen .. Then i borrowed the black ink pen with the people beside me .. When i start fill in .. Got few question i don't know what to write .. Then the examiner tell me . haha ... 3 examiner is at my desk and tell me ~~ haha .. So stupid hor ?

After i fill in the identity paper sheet .. I am thinking of exam paper is coming .. Hope i know how to do .. aiks aiks ... When the exam start ! I turn the paper and see 1st question .. wah lao eh ...beh hiao neh .. 2nd question wa ... so hard !!! 3rd question ... yeah this i know .. then i start write but write until half ops .. i forget liao ... cham betul ... then i think and think and think and then i write down all the answer i can think .. After finish 3rd question .. go to 4th question and 5th question .. wa wa wa ... beh hiao also .. I only know 1 question .. cham lah .. then i think aiya .. bo bian liao .. simply write better than kiss the paper and say bye bye .. Then i start write whatever i think it is correct .. from 1st question , 2nd , 4th and 5th ... Yeah finished attempt all the question but ... hopefully what i wrote in the exam paper is correct lah ...

Now i see the clock .. wa 1 more hour to go ... I only use 1 hour to finished 5 question .. What kind of people i am ? haha .. I am not expert , i am stupiest . Don't know how to do so can finished so fast ... Then i think what should i write again .. Think for 15 minutes .. No one point i can think it out .. Then i decide to write down all the point i wrote in my exam booklet and ask my aunt whether the answer i wrote is link to the answer and correct ..

After 2 hours ... Examiner said 2 hours exam is now finished . Please put down your pen and we will go and collect . my booklet and exam paper is the 1st the examniner collect .. Then i sit at there and think .. I know how to do or i don't know ? I cant say i don't know at all . If i don't know at all why i can attempt all the question ? quite funny .. I am not really know and also not really don't know .. haha .. Half of each others i think ~~

Yeah ~~~ finished exam .. huhu ... But i have some worry ~~~ Mummy , brother and aunt say is okay . don't worry . It had passed . As long as u try Ur best . Mummy said never mind is okay . but i know if i cannot get good results u will sad . sorry ah if i really cannot .. 30% can i think 70% cannot !! Hope i am lucky and can get good results .. god pls bless me to get good results and make everybody happy ~~

from exam centre to my house need 2 hours journey .. very far .. haha ... profressional exam is exam at the place which is don't know and set by the ACCA . So trouble .. aduh ~ haha .. Go back liao ~~ It is a very very very cold day .. My whole body like ice . very very pain ... and i am extremely headache because i have no sleep for few night and within a month + i only sleep 2 hours a day and study all the time ..

Reached house ~~ Pack my clothes and go to Cambridge for holiday.. At night we open party in the hotel ~~ I had a lots of foods and very full ... Today we went to the HK restaurant in Cambridge . I drink HK style pear cold tea . ( zhen zhu nai cha ) ... Not very nice lo ... And we see a very very weak worker and she is such a funny person .. When our dim sum is come . we ask for chili source . Then she find the chili source until we had finish the dim sum .. then she tell us at the moment we cant find the chili source .. haha .. she so funny .. A lots of things she also don't know . Maybe she is a new worker there . She take the dishes and don't know what to do ..Such a funny worker ..

Now i am back to my house and ly on my bed to write this blog .. I am really very tired because yesterday i also no sleep . aiks .. Hope today can sleep very tight .. ~~

~ tired and headache night ~

~ The night before exam ... ~

I cannot sleep the night before exam .. aduh .. Then i study because i still have half book haven't study .. I only finshed half of the syllabus ... aduh ... but not really know what is talking about !!

Hope i know how to answer the question later .. amitofo ~~ bao you bao you ~~ jia you ~~ left few hours then i will be free and after a week back malaysia .. yahoo ~~~

I am extremely headache now ! Hopefully later can answer the question well . Really hope .. please please help me .. bless me ~~

~ last day last day ~

~ last day for me to struggling ~

Busying study study study !!!! But still blogging ? haha ... I am blogging before i go to bed ...

Busy ~~~ Study 1st ~~~ bless me good luck !!!

~ headache ~

Today i really headache !! i realised that i have half of the book haven't finished ... I only left 24 hours ... Can i finish in this 24 hours ? It is impossible .. Really hope the exam question is the one i study and remember !! please help me .. Bless me bless me ~~~

~ A very full very full day ~

Today i am very very full because i had a lots of foods ... bah ku teh with rice , doughnuts , oven foods , chocolate pancake ,yam with rice , dessert and also fruits ~~ huhu ...breakfast , lunch , tea time , dinner and supper .. no skip any meal ... hahaha ... extremely full ~~~

worry worry ... My mummy is sick !!!! God please help me bless my mummy ~~ Please give her a healthy and happy life ~~ I love her so so so much ~~~

Exam is in the corner .... yeah !! or aiks ?? I really don't know ... I might be happy might be sad !!! Hopefully this day pass quickly and stop at middle of December ~~ This is the most good ~~ haha ... But it only can happen in my dream ~~~ I like to dreaming ... But not sad and scary dream ~~~ haha

Jia you Jia you ~~~~

~ smiling and crying ~

~ Dreaming ~
The day before i keep dream and smiling until wake up .. It is not once ... I don't know what dream do i made but i can feel it is very funny ~ haha ...

Today is crying !!! Crying until wake up ..7 times in a night !!!!! I think it is a very sad and scary dream ~~ aiks ... I am worry that tonight will i crying until wake up again ? I don't want .. I want sleep tight .. In this month i only sleep 2 to 3 hours per night !! I am super super tired and have a panda eye ~~

~ ??? ~
I don't know why am i always have negative thinking ! I am trying to get into positive way but it did not stand for long period of time ... why ? I really scare and sad ~~ what a stupid characteristic that i have !!!!

~ Studying ~
Last 4 days before i have my holiday and go back to malaysia ~~ I promised i will try my best .. I will I will !! Although i know it is very hard for me but i promise i promise i promise i will i will i will try my very very very best ~

once a things said 3 time that mean it is real ~~ I really will ... Bless me please !!

~ last day of november ~

~ brain stuck ~

Study study study study study .... I will try my best !!!

~ energy ~

~ Energy ... Big energy don't know came from where to cheer me up and have a little bit positive thinking but is only a very very short time~ Is like a wind ... After a very short time .. energy had gone !!! All the negative thinking had come and i am back to the previous ... aiks ...What should i do ? I really don't understand myself ..

I really hope the energy come to me and stick in my bodies so that i will not give up and will not have negative thinking ... What should i do to make myself have that energy .. who can help me ?

I really want ... I really scare ... I really hope .. I really think .. But i have no answer ... Hope more and sad more ... I really want but i cant do it .. I really scare but got what use ? nothings can do ..

Where is the moment i needed the most ?
I had kick up the leaves and the magic is gone .
My blue skies fade to gray .
My passion had gone away .
I stand on the line just to hit the new low .
My faking smile
My life's been way offline .
I am falling into pieces always .
I have a bad day , i sing a sad song hope it can turn it around , but it cannot turn into a good day .
I really don't know and i don't want to lie myself .
I need a blue sky

If you have a bad day , also cannot lose the hope !!! but my problems make my hope lose and get into a bad day !!! I have a bad day and i sing a sad song but i cannot turn it around ... I am so so so so sad and lose all the hope ~~

~~ today is friday ~~

~ This is the last Friday for me to study .... hahaha ~~~ Next Friday exam !!! My feeling on that day is happy and also sad ~~ Happy is because the exam has pass , sad is because ...know lah ..

Today i and kor kor went to sainburry's ... We plan to buy present for aunt but we think so long ... 1 n half hours inside the supermarket .. haha .. At last we bought 100 pound ~~ huhu ... exp neh but it is worth lah .. haha ...

Received my ACCA certificate today ~~

~ crying day ~

Today is a crying day . I don't know why will cry for whole day ... seem like too many tears ... I really feel sorry ... I don't understand ur heart .. 1 day i feel u okay , 1 day i feel u not okay ... haiz ...

Thanks da shao ~~

I don't know tease u happy , please forgive me ....
I do not know listening ur heart , please forgive me ...
I am learning to be tough , mature , independent , let u feel more ease ..
I am learning do not be waywardness , do not give up and do not spiteful act ..

Sorry .. Please forgive me ~~

~~ Don't know what mood i have now ~~

What is my mood now ? scare , sad , happy , lonely , miss , hate ? I think all also have ... I am facing a problems ... I am thinking what should i do now ... What i want ? what i like ? what should do ? what to do ?

I really don't know why i have so big different with others !!! Why i cannot do somethings good to make the person who love and care me be happy ? Why i always give trouble to them ? Why i always don't know how to decide a things ? Isn't it I had somebody to rely so now i become a person don't know what to do and what should do ?

I really don't know don't know don't know ~ I don't like this type of life ~~~ I hate to be alone ~~~ Maybe this is the different between Malaysia and UK ~~~

Blur ~~~

~ the bad feeling come back again ~

~~ very very bad feeling come back ~~

I am so so so sad ~~
I am so so so tired ~~
I am very very very hate !!
I am very very very scare !!!

~ cannot sleep !!! ~

I cannot sleep i cannot sleep !!! why ? why ?
I am very very tired but i cannot sleep !!!! aiks ... heartbroken !!!

Suddenly feel Can't take my eyes of you this song very very nice n meaningful ~~ Love this song at the moment ~~ hahaha ....

Study ah !!! left 10 days ah ~~~ and left 20 days can back to Malaysia ... yeah yeah `~~ I know i will not happy after 2 month but i still want to go back Malaysia 1st at least this 2 month i can be happy than now ~~ aiks ... stressful ... hate the life here ... extremely sien , lonely n stressful ~~~ How could i find myself ? where should i go and what should i do ? haiz ~~ I am the person don't know what i want , what i like , what to do , where to go and which road to walk !!!!!!!

~~ sad ~~

God , why u give snow come when i m sleeping ? I though u will present me coz i love snow very much but snow gone off in the morning .. aiks .. I m so sad ~~

Study study study ~~~~

Sien ~!!!!!!!!!!!!

~ miss and sad ~

~ I miss I miss ~ I sad I sad ~ Sorry my lovely ~
I know you had give up as well .. I know you are sad ~ what to do ?
I also give up . I also sad .. I feel sorry too ~~
Kelly is not a kelly ~ kelly is a stupid girl , useless girl ... I have no position to require people love me .. sorry .. very very sorry ~~

Sien ~~ Crazy gal ~~

^^ sorry ^^

^^ sorry ^^

I realised i had give up ... I am very sorry to those people who love and care me .. I still remember what i promised you but I am very very sorry . I cant do it .. I realised i had give up ...

I feel guilty , stress and sad when u all give me your love and care .. I am really sorry !! My tears are non stop streaming when i feel u all care about me ...I am useless .. I am stupid ...

I am a bedraggled person ..I am the person that come to the world for giving trouble to people ...I don't know what to say to myself anymore ... I am the person that always give problems to the person who love me ... I will not give u any happiness .. I cant give you .. My promise cannot trust .. I will not achieve what i had promised . I am the people that always be in 2 mind ..

Please do not trust what i had promised . I cant do it .. I am useless .. Sorry ...

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sorry sorry sorry
sorry sorry
very very very sorry
sorry sorry
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~ A fragile heart ~

I realised that i have a fragile heart ... I feel sorry to those who care me ... I am very sorry .. I know you all love and care me but i feel more stressful and sad because i feel sorry to you all !! I am very sorry and thanks for the support !!

chocolate ~
chocolate is a snack that can make people feel happy and forget the sadness ? Is this really ? Why i had chocolate but i don't feel happy ? I feel really heartbroken and sad ~~~

I know other people might have more stress than i had but this stress is maximum for me .. I cannot accept more stress than this ... I really miss secondary life , that time i really feel what is happy although sometime is unhappy .... That time my life is so free , i have nothing to worry and did not care that much ...

Everybody say I had grow up a lots than last time . Is this good or bad ? I don't feel any happy after i had grow up . I had a lots of thing to think and care !! I think I am not suitable to be a person that can give people feel happy .. I came to this world , is give people trouble not happy ..

Now i feel like i had drop in a very deep hole and cannot get up anymore~~

I feel suffocated..

~ a very terrible day ~

~ Today is a very very terrible day ~

While crying while studying !! I really feel very very stress ~~ How hard i tried , i also cannot do it .. why ? I really so stupid ?At last , crying without tears because my tears had dry up !!! aiks ....

Eat ? good appetite ? >> no more ~~ is it good or bad ? at least can keep fit !! haha ...

I don't know how to express my feeling !! I don't know what to say , the only thing i can say is i am very stress , sad , scare ...

Hard day to pass , Hard to get a good breath ~~

~~ tired ~~

~ another very tired day ~
I am very very tired ... left 17 days to tired and sad ~~~ After that of course have 2 months happy days ~~ After that !!!! 98% will be sad ~~ What to do ? I am too stupid !!! haiz ~~~

~ A hard breath ~
I cannot breath , I really cannot breath ... Everything is stuck there , i cannot breath ...

~ enjoy your holiday ya ~
Enjoy your 10 days taiwan trip ya~~

~ what to do ? what to do ? ~

I really don't know what to do ... What to do what to do ? Only left 17 days ... but i still cant remember the syllabus ... I remember A i forget B , i remember B i forget A , i remember C i forget A and B !!! What to do ? Who can help me ? I really try my best but look like i cant do it ... I feel very tired .. I cant even smile .. What to do except wash face by tears ~~ I really scare the results will make all people disappointed but what to do .. I really cant do it ...
Last time i believe if work hard , of course the results will be good but i know how i work hard now , i also cant do it ..

While i heard this >> You should think are you choose the correct course ? My heart have a lots of things to consider and i don't know what i like ... Sad feeling !!

All the negative thinking are come back .... Since last time i have negative thinking but in last few month i change to have some positive thinking in my life but now back to negative thinking .. What should i do although i know all people dislike negative thinking people !! It run inside my brain !! aiks ...

I had try my best .. I really try my best .. I hate being myself .. I want to amnesia .. I dislike to be what i be now !!! I cant even see the bright even though i had turn on the light ..

Really dark !!

~~ In a word ~~

" In a word "
I cant stop the feeling ..
My heart is hide behind ..
I cant feel the happiness anymore ..
I cant hear the word that can cheer me up anymore ..

I am scare , I am lonely , I am sad , I am lazy , I am stupid , I am pig , I am bleeding , I am crying , I am thinking , I am useless , I am forgetful

Last time i talk to you , i will feel better ..
But now i talk to you , i have no happy feeling ..
Last time i am very happy ..
but now i am not happy ..
Last time i feel better after i share out my sadness..
but now i feel same although the sadness had share out to someone ..
I have no mood ...

I want to close my eye and pass to another happy life ... I hope the sad time will pass quickly and always be the lucky gal ...I hope the same worry and sadness only come 1 time ... so hope all the lucky come to me ....

Help me Help me Help me Help me ... ~~~
Save me Save me Save me Save me ...~~~
I lost myself .... I am insane soon ~~

~ A dream that keep repeat ~

~ I am shocked wake by a dream that i had dream for few times .. Why it come to me always ? Is this because the dream is going to come into my real life ? But now i cant remember what is the dream anymore .. aiks .. I cant even remember is this good dream or bad dream , happy dream or scary dream ... I just remember for few minutes after i wake up then i forget every single things and only know this dream keep come to me ...

Hopefully is a good and happy dream ~~

I am very tired ... I had sleep in abnormal times that the time i will never sleep ... Maybe you think it is quite normal but for me i think it is abnormal ... I will not sleep at that time ... Maybe i am too tired with this kind of life ...

Tears will come to me when i am scare and when i feel lonely ... I realise i have phobia because i am afraid of facing exam ... That feeling is really make my life become gray .. I have no confidence at all and i cannot concentrate at all .. What i studied will not store and lock inside my brain ..This is not good isn't it ? aiks .. I am afraid ... I am scare ... I am stress ...

Can i face all these stress until the day i graduate ? Do you think i can ? I think i will insane before i graduate .. This type of stress really make me cant breath !! aiks ... A soft heart will get influenced by these type of stress ... A soft heart cant fight against these type of stress .. Isn't it care too much then have more stress ? Maybe .... Maybe i am caring too many things !! aiks ... Not pass then failed , Not failed then pass .. scare what ? haiz ...No one can know what my feeling is ... what my stress is ... I hate to be myself ~~ I don't like have a stressful life ... I think no one like this but what can we do ? We have to face it although we dislike .. These only can bring us be more mature ~~

Life is easy but human make it become hard !! ~ > I am not agree with this !!!

Life is not easy ~ Life is full of stress ! Life is full of sadness ~ Life is lack of happiness ! Happiness will come less than sadness ~~ Happiness will be only a shorter time but sadness will follow you for a very long time before you can throw them away ~~

Start night drive ~ Can i do it ? haha ... Hopefully i am not going to be pig soon ~~~

Yeah ...

Yeah, I am successful using iphone to blog ... Beh pai nih ... Haha ... But need have internet lar ... Ma huan nih .. Not always have line to online ler .... Haha ...

~~ trying ~~

I am trying blogging with my iphone ... Haha ... Will it appear on my blog ? Hopefully I am doing the right way ... Let check ...

~~ i am super lazy ~~

I am very lazy today .. I cant concentrate at all .. I cant study at all .. What am i know about p5 that i am going to exam ? I am going to die ... who can help me ? who can cheer me up and give me a hope ? haiz ...

Hopefully my hard work can get a pass !!

~ boom boom boom ~

My brain is full !!! full with ???? don't know hopefully is the useful p5 notes !! hahaha ...

My brain is boom ~~~

busy + tired ~

~ busy busy & tired tired ~

~ busy busy & tired tired ~

~ busy busy & tired tired ~

~ busy busy & tired tired ~

~ busy busy & tired tired ~

~ tired ~

I am very very tired . really tired ..

~ bless ~

Bless my cousin get well soon ~

Hope mummy will be free , healthy ..

A very hard day for me .... Study study study study !!!!

~~ buffet ~~

Today we planned to go Milton Keynes to have dim sum at Taipan but on the way to Taipan we saw a Red Hot World buffet !! ( It is opposite Taipan restaurant ) ... haha ~~ 3rd of us wah ~~ We said buffet restaurant had finished renovate ... Then we look at the buffet advertisement board . Wah !!!! 150 dishes include Italian , Chinese , Indian , English , Cajun and Mexican .... Then we said change place change place .. Here is nice , more choices and cheaper than dim sum ... Then we said see the dishes only decide .. It is a lots of choices ... 150 dishes !! wah lao eh ..It is very attractive !! It is very beautiful restaurant ~~ then we decide to eat the buffet ..

At last we are extremely full !! hahaha .... The foods are very nice .. yummy yummy ~~

Mummy u have lost the chance to try this nice world buffet ... Next time u come , we go together .. haha ... It is very nice ~~

some pictures ~~












~ strawberry and lemon cheese cake .. yummy ~











~ pannacota ~











~ buffet ~

~~ the feeling of skiping class ~~

Today i had skipped my class .. This could be a very happy day for me because i don't have to wake up earlier and go to the boring class but i am not happy at all ... I cannot sleep well .... I planned not to study and enjoy for the whole day but once it come to evening i have a very scary feeling that about my exam so i take out the question book and try answer the question and planned to ask my aunt whether i have answer the question correctly either ....

I have answer wrongly but my answer have some point on it ... aiks .. I am very sad and confused on how can i answer correctly and understand all the syllabus !!! I am very very sad .... I am very very stupid ....stress !!!!

left 3 weeks to prepare 20 chapters !! In this 20 chapters i only know 1 part of it ... aiks ... Can i manage to finish in this 3 weeks ???? kelly !!! Are you going to continue your lazy ?? Am i lazy ?? I had study from 8am until 5pm !!! Is it still lazy ??? I don't know what is the purposed for me to study that much ? I am really sad and feel very stress in certain reason ... I am really feel my world is dark in the moment because i am very stress in this subject !! struggling in many things in this subject !!!

What i think now is I don't want to grow up !!!

我不想长大 ..( I don't want to grow up )

我不想长大不想不想长大
I don't want to grow up , i really don't want to
长大以后世界就没有花
once i am grow up , i have no colorful world
我不想长大真的很不想
I don't want to grow up ! I really don't want to
我宁愿永远又傻又笨
I rather to be stupid and silly forever
我不想长大真的很不想
I really don't hope to be grow up
长大以后我会失去我小时候拥有的快乐
I had lost my happiness once i grow up
我真的好想回去小时候
I hope to be small kid forever
那时的我真的一点烦恼都没有
I have no worried at all when i am small
我好回去天真愚蠢的我
I want to go back when i am naive and stupid
我不想不想很不想的长大
I hope i am not going to grow up forever !!

I want to be a kid forever !!!!

sandwiches day ~~

Today is sandwiches day because my breakfast and lunch is sandwiches !!!!
haha .. The sandwiches are made by ???? of course is me lah !!! hahaha ... It is quite nice ~~ haha ...

At night my aunt and i prepared party foods for my aunt tomorrow office party ~~~ I and kor keep curi makan .. haha .. yummy yummy ~~~ haha ....

I will live happily and try my best in my studies ~~

Hope i have chance to pass the exam ~~~ jia you kelly ~~ don't give up oh ~~

~ yeah ~

I am very scare because 5th of december is coming . I am going to face a very scary 2 hours .. After that i am going to holiday but can i enjoy on that day ? I don't think so .. I am double , triple and ..... scare and sad !!!

I had try my best in this 2 month + but i still know nothings . Today ... i know how to answer a question !! yeah .. i am happy although i know a question does not give me many marks . It is only 10 marks .. but i am very happy that at last i know how to answer 1 question .. I hope i will know how to answer the 2nd ,3rd ,4th ,5th and so on ..... God please help me ..

I promised myself this weekend start i want to study .. I hope i can do it !! I hope i don't give up ... I hope i can try my best to do ..

~~ feeling ~~

I miss you ~ I miss every things ..

I am sad ~ I am crying ..

I am stress ~ I am worry ..

I am alone ~ I am scare ..

~~ a very complicated mood .. ~~

I have a complicated mood ... I had try my best to do but i realise that i cant .. aiks .. I really hope i can but i cant .. I really don't know what to do ... aiks .. sad sad ...

Stupid mood ..

~~ sien sien sien ~~

I am very bored .. I am bored till don't know what to do ... Sien ...

Boring !!! Boring !!! Boring !!!

A very sick day !!

aiks .. I have a very terrible day .. I am sick , my mouth was very sour .. yier ...
I got headache ... Is because of the knock ? Maybe is maybe not because i can touch my head already .. I just cannot press the specific place because it is still have a little bit pain .. haha .. But i think it is much okay than b4 ~~ hehe ...

Kelly got a very sick heart ... I had realise a lots of things is not suitable me including the course i study now ... It is very unsuitable to me .. I am very upset ... I have a sense of inferiority . I feel sorry to those peoples who think that i can ... I am very sorry because i cannot do it .. I had try very hard but now i know that it is too hard for me and it is not suitable me ... Anyway how , i will try my best with the stress .. Hopefully , i can beat down all the exam and get into qualified as soon as possible ..

A lots of people will said : Don't care you pass or failed ,as long as you have try your best . This is probably 3rd parties will say ... Same to me , i will tell my friends this as well ... Actually this advise does not help a lots but it can let people feel that you are still get support .... Is this good for hear ? haha .. For me , i don't think so . I don't like people keep remind me study , and exam is coming . I hate this now !!!!!

1 more month !! 4 weeks ~~~ I am going to jump from the most high mountain !!! I am very worry but i'm still do nothings ... Am i study hard ? aiks ... Why i still don't know at all ?? haiz ....

I am super stupid in study !!! Stupid kelly ~~

Stupid Kelly jia you ~~~

1 time cannot then try 2nd time ... 2nd time cannot try 3rd time ... you have 10 years to qualified !!! Maximum 10 years ~~~

~~ halloween ~~

Tired + sick + cold ~~
Today i am extremely tired and cold .. My bone is very pain ... aiks ...






















Before go to college ... 7 layer's Today !!!! haha .. I am very fat rite ? haha ... I am super heavy and bag is very heavy as well .. hahaha ...

















Is me is me .. Before go to college ~~
















Frozen car ~~ haha .... Frozen without freezer .. haha ... It is free freezer .. haha .. We decide to put all the freezer foods outside the house so that we can save the money not to buy freezer .. hahaha ... Our suggestion !! hahaha ....





















My breakfast .... egg mayo , sweet corn and ham sandwiches prepared by me ... haha ...







































* Guess how we get this ?? haha ... This is 100% pure Nando's extra hot chili source .. haha ... Remember , this nando's source does not sell in the market !!! It's extremely funny !! haha ...

~~ unlucky + sad + tired day ~~

I am super tired this few days ~ I cannot concentrate at all in the class .. I feel sleepy every second ... Am i not feeling well ? I feel have a little but not sick at all .. haha ... Probably just lazy ~~ haha ....

Today i am super unlucky !!! aiks .. I had dropped my 10 pound .... :'( .... Super super sad ~~ aiks ....

Unlucky + Sad + Tired !!!

~ A very beautiful dream ~

Today i woke up at 5am and i though it is 6am .. haha ... I am really blur .. I had forget to change my hp time go back an hours .. haha ..

Outside is really beautiful .. I like the snow scenery very much ~~ I took some photo b4 go to college ~ haha ...

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This is what we do in this morning !!! ~ haha .

~~ b4 go to college ~~

I plan to draw somethings on the snow this morning but ... i cant draw it ... aiks .. .sad ~~ haha .. But she know i love her until maximum already .. hahaha ....

It is extremely cold !!! -3'c ... I am ice while waiting the train .. All part of my body is become ice and very pain .. haha ... cold ~~Today is the 1st time i din't sleep in the train while go to college because outside is really beautiful .. I am watching the scenery and thinking of .. haha ... Who will be share this happy with me in the future ? haha ... Will us have chance ? haha ... Hopefully ~~~ haha ...

Today i cannot concentrate at all .. From the class start until the end , i am sleepy ... but my brain still working in the class ... I am in the class for whole day but my heart is fly away to other places !! aiks .... so cham ... haha ...Maybe i am really tired ~~ haha

Guess how many layer i wear today ? haha ....

Sleeping !! Sleeping ~~ Sleeping ^^

~ snowing ~

I have 2 mood today ...
sad + happy ~~
In the morning i feel that i am really lazy to study but i have to study so i hate it !! And it is really cold ... only 1'c !!! How can i survive ? I turn on the heating but i am still very cold ...

In the afternoon , i phone my lovely ... We chat for a while then i watched my drama and chatting with my friends .. At this time i change to be a happy gal because i am really forget what my stress is ..

After my dinner , we realised that outside is snowing .. That time i am very happy because i like snow a lots .. I love snow .. It is extremely cold .. 0'c but i am still loving it ~~~ haha ... I like a little gal play around in the garden and outside of my house ~~ I love snow ... Thanks god for giving me this good present to cheer me up ~ I love you ... Return back to my memory , i had play the snow with my lovely b4 ... I really miss the day we play together .. I had keep it in my heart as a part of my sweet memory ~~ I know you will not read this but i still want to write .. I love you my lovely .. Hope to meet you soon ~~ you're my lovely forever ~~ muacks ...















snow is covered the grass .. Our footprints ... haha ...















we are trying do a love shape on the grass ? Can you see it ? haha ...
















Is me is me ~~ I am turn round while snowing ~~ I love snow a lots ~~ while i see snow i can become little gal ~~ kid ~~ haha ...















~ my aunt car ... It is covered by the snow ~~ haha ... Tomorrow morning we have to clear the snow b4 we can drive it out ~~ hahaha ... Have to wake up earlier in the morning if not cannot go to train station on time ~~ haha ....















Is me .. After i take my shower because i am wet with the snow ~~ haha ... It is extremely cold .. I am sitting on the window .. It is extremely high .. I am sitting there for ?? haha .. watched the snow and think of .... haha .....















Is me again .. haha .. I am fat in this picture rite ? haha ...















kelly is fat ~~ haha ... i only wear 2 t-shirt and 1 normal jacket .. I am very cold .. My big jacket is hang near the heater because it is wet with the snow and tomorrow i want to wear to the college ~~ haha ..















I draw my name in the love on the snow ~~
It is extremely beautiful but the picture is not clear !! :'(
































































After took my shower and sit on the window ~~~























A house view from the window ~

My aunt car view from the window ....

I am very very happy that today is snowing !! It is really unexpected because it is too early for snowing ! haha ... By the way , i love it very much ~~ I love snow ! Snow can make me forget every things . It can make me be a little gal ... I will play around with the snow without feel the cold .. haha ... I love it although it is extremely cold ~~ I love snow ~~

~ my nice memory ~~

~ 1'c ~

ho ho ~~~
very very cold ...
Today is only 1'c ... haha ...

Study whole day but only finished 1 chapter ...
aiks ~~~
left 19 chapter ?
when i can finish? aduh !!!
left 1 month !!!

~ sunday ~

Weekend is going to pass .... aiks ...
Today is very cold ~ winter is approaching !!
It's only 5'c ...
According to weather forecast , next few days will be negative !!

I am very full in weekend because we eat all the times ...
Today i had foods until i am sick . haha ..
It is extremely full ~~

Time go back an hours ...
why ? I hate it ....
because i want the time fly away very very fast but now extra 1 hours ....
lolz ....