I remember some of the dream i made yesterday ... It is very strange dream ... I am not sure what is the purpose of these dream and i am sure this dream would not happen in my life but it is truth that i am very willing to do somethings to the person i care even though is a dangerous things ...
The person i really care in my life , i known this person as 'A' ... 'A' birthday is coming so i decide to get somethings 'A' like but this things are very difficult to get it .... It have to go through a very dangerous way to get it ... I am going for it to get this things ... Before 'A' birthday , 'A' is misunderstand that i am doing bad things and 'A' is very angry with me but 'A' does not know i done all these things because of 'A' . I am keep quite and get scold by 'A' until 'A' birthday then i cannot remember what is going on . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . .. What is the story at the end ??
I am not sure what is the purpose of the dream ....I don't know why these dream come to me .... I don't know why i cannot have a good sleep every day ..... why ?
aiks .... Dreaming and nightmare for me is normal now .....
This is the hardest post i wrote for few days and think for few days .... Why this post is the hardest ? Can i know what problem i have ? I cannot have a good sleep every night ... The scary and happy dream is keep coming to me every night , every hours and every second when i am sleeping... All of these dream was very strange .. I think it is strange because in the real world it would not happen !
Why i feel myself got problems ? Did any 1 try b4 every day , every night and every second the dream is keep coming ...This problems are giving me trouble for few years ...Every night i can dream 5 to 6 different dream ... After a then b then c then d until i jump up the bed ... I feel scary about sleep back sometime coz i dont want to have the dream anymore .. can i ?
As a show said that if u did not do wrong anythings , u will not scare even though ghost meet u ... why i keep dream those scary and happy dream ? Am i doing somethings wrong ? sometime i cannot sleep for few days and i just force myself to sleep but end up just turn here n there on the bed whole night ....
What problem did i face of ? someone said i have over imaginative so that i always have dream and nightmare .. someone asked me did u go to see psychologists ? Am i really need ? Did i have those problems ? I also not understand what type of problems i have .... If i really go to psychologists then what should i say to the doctor when they ask me what problem u have ? I don't know what type of problems i have actually .. haha ... Maybe i m fine .... haha ...
This few days i keep have a same nightmare .... somethings that i will amnesia ....The feeling of never know a things , never know a person and never know who i am !!! This feeling is very very very scary !!! haiz .... What's wrong ? Am i really so scare to face this world ? I think i am not lolz . hahha ... why this dream keep coming to me ?
Actually i also dont know what problems i have .... someone asked go to temple to give god (lou dan) read by hokkien ! .. Is this can solve my problem ? aiks ... Hope this trouble will be disappear soon ... It is give me trouble for few years ! haiz ... Can i sleep well tonight pls ? haiz .... I really hope i can !!!
Aiks .. i dont know want to write what anymore .... end here ~~~
Recently , I found out a miserable love story ~~ This is a very touch story . She compose and sang a song to his bf ~~
A song composed by a 17 years old and she had passed away .... Play this song and read the story then u will know more detail and touch !
This is the lyric for this songs ...
English version
Before I close my eyes for the last time I wish to tell you I love you In your embrace, don't wish to let go In my heart, thousands of words I have yet to tell you I used all my strength to keep my eyes from closing After this farewell, there will be no more meetings, no more can I be by your side But please don't forget You promised me you will live on as well as you can
I'm leaving first, leaving for a faraway place I won't be able to watch the sunrise with you anymore I won't be able to wait for dawn Erasing all the memories, is not an easy thing But life & death are predestined, don't be too sad Mandarin version 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 先走了 去了好远的地方 不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮 所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易 生死由天决定 不要太伤心 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前 我想对你说我爱你 在你怀里 舍不得放弃 心里有千万语还没说给你听 我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛 这次告别就不能再相遇 不能再陪你 但不要忘记 你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 我 永远 爱你。
This story had touched me deeply , don't you ? This story teached me a lesson ... Don't care whatever things happen around us , we have to appreciated all the things and peoples beside us !
This is the 1st time we have a super duper nice father's day ~~ haha ... We never celebrate like this before ... haha ...
I and my bro cooked english dinner and i maked a durian cheesecake with chocolate fudge . Although we never learn how to cook a perfect english dinner but i think it is quite okay if don't criticised it ~ haha ...
Our dinner menu are :
1 salad and garlic bread 2 Roast chicken 3 cheese pasta with sausages 4 Roast potatoes 5 cheesy cauliflower and brocoli 6 durian cheesecake with chocolate fudge 7 wine lamb chops 8 wine
Are these menu delicious ? haha ... This is the 1st time we have english at our house ~
Here's some pictures ::
We don't take much photos for this day coz all of us busy eating ~~ hahaa ......
I wish all of the father's in this world " happy father's day "
This is the website for personality quiz >> http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
My results ~~
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Jealousy Level: 50%
You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy
You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"
I just passed my 20th years old birthday .... This year i have a meaningless birthday ... I am keep waiting something impossible . what am i waiting ? why i din feel any happy ? I have no mood to pass this birthday too . I seems like no pass my birthday ... I am not enjoying ... why ? aiks ... maybe because I cannot get what we said b4 ... so sad ~~
I realise that i still cannot chase you out from my heart !!! but .... why ? Say throw away then throw away meh ? haiz .... Maybe i really cannot forget what we did and said b4 ~~ Anyway hope u live happily ~~ Exam is coming ... Must jia you jia you ~~~ I have decide what you do i will always support as long as the thing is correct ~~ maybe u will feel everything is too late . rite ? but nevermind lah ... i will always support u , don't care what relationship we r ~~ haha ..
Today i had opened new email account . I am not using kellylow89@hotmail.com anymore including msn .. I had created new 1 . If you want to know . please do not hesitate to ask .
kelly is depressed today . A stone is stuck on my heart . I cant breath . aiks ~~ I dont know why .. I really very unhappy ... but ....
I am going to birthday tomorrow .. i seems no mood to celebrate and also no think want buy cake or whatever .. aiks ... kelly is lost .. where u go ... what u hope and expect to have when you birthday ? now my answer is nothing . haiz ...
Today is the last day for me to become a temporary teacher in primary school ... I am expect that i will be teaching 40 class today but when i went in 4bt i just realise i am wrong .. I have mix 4bt and 4o students .. haha .. But today i had teach 4bt ... and the last class 40 students mix in 4bt class because is moral class .. They are very naughty but i still can accept .. they learn and play happily and i teached happily too although a bit tired after teaching them .. haha ...
I very miss teaching ... Feel like want to become a teacher but i have no credit in bm so .. aiks .. no chance ... haha ... anyway how i had experience to become a teacher ... I think this is a very nice experience .. it is worth for me to work with less salary ~~ haha
I hope i have chance to become a temporary teacher again because it is very nice ~~ haha ...
Today is public holiday so i have a day off .. I am so so so tired after 2 days teaching in primary school .. haha .. Today i am not feeling well and super tired .. luckily today have no school .. haha .. but i miss all those cute students . There are all very cute although they are naughty ... i like to teach them .. hehe ... miss them ...
I had find out actually become a teacher is a good choice also because it have satisfaction and this job is not easy to lost ... but i cant choose this line because my bm have no credit . aiks .... if not i will think to change to this line because it is quite nice job .. haha ..
I dont want to teach teenager because they are hard to teach ..I only want to teach standard 1 ,2 ,3 ... hehe .. they are very very cute .... miss them ~~
tomorrow is the last day for me to be a teacher in primary school .... i am so sad because tomorrow i have no class for standard 1 ,2,3 .. aiks ... i have to teach standard 4 .. sienz ~~~