another 15 weeks to go ~~~

Malaysia .. Malaysia ..Malaysia ~~~

15 more weeks i have to suffer here ..... what to do ???? of course keep quiet and wait lar .. wakaka .. Is tis 15 weeks will happen something unexpect ? Good or bad ? pls bad dont come la ok ? i dislike u .. wakkaa ...

Study Study ... i hate u !!! but i have no choice .... can i say i love u ? kelly say la i love u to the books .. wakkaa ... i think tis will be impossible . when u get it from my mouth then i think u get wrong person or i am abnormal !! wakkaa ..

Happy happy i want u .. sad sad pls go away from me ... i dont want u !! wakaka ..

Hope everybody will be alright ~ take care everyone ...

long time din't update ~~

Now back to uk again ... study again !!! haiz .. hate .. headache !! Tomorrow is taxation ,wed law and thurs financial reporting ... wah lao eh .. so hard neh ... passing mark high gok .. macam mana nih !!! sien ah !!! class is the sieness things in my life ~~ haha ..

sick day ...

Today i went to doctor lee .. and end up with these medicine ...
ish !! so hate lei !!
















When i see this medicine i feel bo lak coz i hate medicine . haha ...
sleep sleep ~~~

~ 2 days trips at kl ~

wah , i am feel drunk when i m on the way to kl .. haha .. My bro drive and i sleep ~~~ hahaha .... That night i am having a very nice dinner which i din eat b4 .. haha .. My bro brought me to puchong and ate shabu shabu ... wah very very nice ah ~~ hehehe ....

The next day my bro brought me to old town for breakfast after i submit my visa application .At night we went to sri petaling pasar malam .. This trip to kl i tried all new foods ~~ The feeling so nice .... We bought a lots of nice foods and back to hotel to having our buffet . hahaha ....

I am so full ... haha ...

~ father's birthday ~

Today is my father and birthday ... 12 july ....Happy birthday to them ~~~

In the morning we went to had some breakfast with my father . After that we went to busy our stuff and bought some wine & secret recipe cake .

We bought 2 cake and we made it 1 cake with different flavor .. haha ... <> At night we celebrate my father birthday .. I and cj washed the squids , prawns , made wanton and fried yam . Other things we don't know how to wash and all these done by my mum . haha ...

Tonight we are very happy and this is the 1st time i drunk ... It is so terrible feeling coz i keep feel i'm turn turn turn with 360'c and bone very pain .. haha .. Is this sweet 1st and then bitter ? hahaha .... I drunk for 2 days ... so sakit .. haha ....




























































































Tomorrow morning drive to kl ~~~~ Applying my visa to uk !! haha ...

~ A day job ~ 1/7/09

Yesterday i got a mission to complete at politeknik terengganu .... What mission is that ? I went there to be a boss for lease houses ... haha ...

This is the 1st job with a lots money in my life ~~ I got a lots of experience there while doing this job .. haha ...

















This is what i made today .. haha .. A lots isn't it ? haha .... I used up 5 hours to finished count and clip the receipt with form !! haha ....

~~ A very strange dream ~~

I remember some of the dream i made yesterday ... It is very strange dream ... I am not sure what is the purpose of these dream and i am sure this dream would not happen in my life but it is truth that i am very willing to do somethings to the person i care even though is a dangerous things ...

The person i really care in my life , i known this person as 'A' ... 'A' birthday is coming so i decide to get somethings 'A' like but this things are very difficult to get it .... It have to go through a very dangerous way to get it ... I am going for it to get this things ... Before 'A' birthday , 'A' is misunderstand that i am doing bad things and 'A' is very angry with me but 'A' does not know i done all these things because of 'A' . I am keep quite and get scold by 'A' until 'A' birthday then i cannot remember what is going on . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . ..
What is the story at the end ??

I am not sure what is the purpose of the dream ....I don't know why these dream come to me .... I don't know why i cannot have a good sleep every day ..... why ?

aiks .... Dreaming and nightmare for me is normal now .....

~~ the hardest post ~~

This is the hardest post i wrote for few days and think for few days .... Why this post is the hardest ? Can i know what problem i have ? I cannot have a good sleep every night ... The scary and happy dream is keep coming to me every night , every hours and every second when i am sleeping... All of these dream was very strange .. I think it is strange because in the real world it would not happen !

Why i feel myself got problems ? Did any 1 try b4 every day , every night and every second the dream is keep coming ...This problems are giving me trouble for few years ...Every night i can dream 5 to 6 different dream ... After a then b then c then d until i jump up the bed ... I feel scary about sleep back sometime coz i dont want to have the dream anymore .. can i ?

As a show said that if u did not do wrong anythings , u will not scare even though ghost meet u ... why i keep dream those scary and happy dream ? Am i doing somethings wrong ? sometime i cannot sleep for few days and i just force myself to sleep but end up just turn here n there on the bed whole night ....

What problem did i face of ? someone said i have over imaginative so that i always have dream and nightmare .. someone asked me did u go to see psychologists ? Am i really need ? Did i have those problems ? I also not understand what type of problems i have .... If i really go to psychologists then what should i say to the doctor when they ask me what problem u have ? I don't know what type of problems i have actually .. haha ... Maybe i m fine .... haha ...

This few days i keep have a same nightmare .... somethings that i will amnesia ....The feeling of never know a things , never know a person and never know who i am !!! This feeling is very very very scary !!! haiz .... What's wrong ? Am i really so scare to face this world ? I think i am not lolz . hahha ... why this dream keep coming to me ?

Actually i also dont know what problems i have .... someone asked go to temple to give god (lou dan) read by hokkien ! .. Is this can solve my problem ? aiks ... Hope this trouble will be disappear soon ... It is give me trouble for few years ! haiz ... Can i sleep well tonight pls ? haiz .... I really hope i can !!!

Aiks .. i dont know want to write what anymore .... end here ~~~

~ A miserable story ~

Recently , I found out a miserable love story ~~ This is a very touch story . She compose and sang a song to his bf ~~

A song composed by a 17 years old and she had passed away .... Play this song and read the story then u will know more detail and touch !



This is the lyric for this songs ...

English version

Before I close my eyes for the last time
I wish to tell you I love you
In your embrace, don't wish to let go
In my heart, thousands of words I have yet to tell you
I used all my strength to keep my eyes from closing
After this farewell, there will be no more meetings, no more can I be by your side
But please don't forget
You promised me you will live on as well as you can

I'm leaving first, leaving for a faraway place
I won't be able to watch the sunrise with you anymore
I won't be able to wait for dawn
Erasing all the memories, is not an easy thing
But life & death are predestined, don't be too sad

Mandarin version

在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

This story had touched me deeply , don't you ? This story teached me a lesson ... Don't care whatever things happen around us , we have to appreciated all the things and peoples beside us !

~~ Father's day ~~

This is the 1st time we have a super duper nice father's day ~~ haha ... We never celebrate like this before ... haha ...

I and my bro cooked english dinner and i maked a durian cheesecake with chocolate fudge . Although we never learn how to cook a perfect english dinner but i think it is quite okay if don't criticised it ~ haha ...

Our dinner menu are :

1 salad and garlic bread
2 Roast chicken
3 cheese pasta with sausages
4 Roast potatoes
5 cheesy cauliflower and brocoli
6 durian cheesecake with chocolate fudge
7 wine lamb chops
8 wine

Are these menu delicious ? haha ... This is the 1st time we have english at our house ~

Here's some pictures ::
















































We don't take much photos for this day coz all of us busy eating ~~ hahaa ......

I wish all of the father's in this world " happy father's day "

~~ happy mother's day ~~

Today is a special day for all the mummy in this world ~~~ I wish all the mummy happy mother's day ~~ Hope all the mummy happy and healthy everyday ~~

My mummy's present was ? A song from me .. I sang a song to my mummy , a healthy set and treat her a delicious dinner .. haha ..

幸福的小女孩。。。

在一个家庭里，每一位孩子都是幸福的小孩. 在爸妈的眼里我们永远都是他们的宝贝，不管你曾经怎样伤害过他们，他们都会原谅你。这是每个孩子的优待吗？

我真的发现自己是这一个家的心肝宝贝。。 我在这个家是一个很幸福的小女孩。。。爸，妈，哥都很疼我。。。如果我有多一点兄弟姐妹多好。。哈哈。。 我发现只要我一开口，他们就会帮我。。我要什么都会有。 我真的发现我很幸福。。。 可能我是个很容易满足很容易开心的一位吧。。 不过我用了20年的时间才和家人的关系更进一步。。 以前和我最亲的却不是我家人，而是我朋友。。。 现在的我才是真真能体会到家人的爱和亲。。。

我还记得我小时是给别人顾的，不过只是白天。。。那个顾我的aunty每次带我去他家楼下的超市场。。。 还每次给我吃nasi lemak . 其实我有一点介意为什么我不能是自己爸妈顾呢。。 说真真的，不是很介意啦。。 只是有时会想为什么要给别人顾。。 哈哈。。。

我真的是这个家的心肝宝贝~~~幸福的小女孩～～～永远都是家里好～～

我真的是够幸运。。 如果我没认识到一个人。。。 可能现在的我还是以前的我。。现在的我，可以说是以前365'c变的我。。。 可以说全新的我。。。 没有他就没有现在的我。。。 谢谢他让我成长了。也能感受到爱了。。。 他永远都是我爱我疼我尊重的一位.....～～

我真得够幸运。。够幸福~~

我也学会了一点怎样去看人。。我是一位不管对方是怎样的一个人，只要他没做对不起我的事。我就会尽全力对他好的。。。我不会管他是用真心的对我好还是。。。现在的我，我知道谁是真心的对我好的。。　谁不会害我。。　要得到我的信任是很难，也可以说是很容易。和我做朋友是不是很容易？你们有看过我拒绝和人沟通和人做朋友吗？有看过我在别人有难的时候不帮忙？就算是和一个不认识的我都会帮。我也不懂为什么。。我很少拒绝人的，可以说是我不会吧。我笨gua．．．现在的我是很静对吗？和以前比起来真的是非常的静。。哈哈。。　你们知道谁在我心中是有地位的？哈哈。。。一旦住进了我心里，你就是会被我爱被我疼被我尊重一辈子的。。我不敢说下辈子。。我很肯定这辈子，和在我活着的一天，你永远都是幸福的。人是会犯错的，如果我错的话。请你给我机会改过。你的机会，会是我的光．．．

谢谢．．永远是个幸福的．．爱你们．．哈哈．．

忽然发现自己真的长大了。。。

忽然发现自己真的长大了。。。 真的长大了。。

我发现我真的很疼爱我身边的人。。。 我真的很爱我的家人和身边真真对我好的人。。。

在我妈妈生病的这个期间，我发现我真的长大了，也发现了他对我的重要性。。。 我既然会喂她吃东西 ， 帮她搓肚子，帮她按摩，帮他收拾家里，帮他买东西，帮她煮东西吃（可能我煮的食物不是很好吃，不过我能让他好好的休息和让她吃得好吃饱），还有很多很多我从来都没做的。。。 哈哈。。。

我真的很开心妈妈的病好了~~ 我非常的爱她~~

我也很希望她和妈妈的胃病从此消失。。　希望会身体健康。。开开心心～～

也希望全部人都能健健康康和开开心心。。。

希望她能玩得开开心心和平平安安～～

personality quiz ~~~

This is the website for personality quiz >> http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

My results ~~

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Jealousy Level: 50%

You harbor hidden feelings of jealousy

You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her "Congratulations!", but what you're really thinking is "You're so lucky! Why can't I be you?"

~~ 20th years old birthday ~~

I just passed my 20th years old birthday .... This year i have a meaningless birthday ... I am keep waiting something impossible . what am i waiting ? why i din feel any happy ? I have no mood to pass this birthday too . I seems like no pass my birthday ... I am not enjoying ... why ? aiks ... maybe because I cannot get what we said b4 ... so sad ~~

I realise that i still cannot chase you out from my heart !!! but .... why ? Say throw away then throw away meh ? haiz .... Maybe i really cannot forget what we did and said b4 ~~ Anyway hope u live happily ~~ Exam is coming ... Must jia you jia you ~~~ I have decide what you do i will always support as long as the thing is correct ~~ maybe u will feel everything is too late . rite ? but nevermind lah ... i will always support u , don't care what relationship we r ~~ haha ..

Happy birthday to myself ....