~ 1'c ~

ho ho ~~~
very very cold ...
Today is only 1'c ... haha ...

Study whole day but only finished 1 chapter ...
aiks ~~~
left 19 chapter ?
when i can finish? aduh !!!
left 1 month !!!

~ sunday ~

Weekend is going to pass .... aiks ...
Today is very cold ~ winter is approaching !!
It's only 5'c ...
According to weather forecast , next few days will be negative !!

I am very full in weekend because we eat all the times ...
Today i had foods until i am sick . haha ..
It is extremely full ~~

Time go back an hours ...
why ? I hate it ....
because i want the time fly away very very fast but now extra 1 hours ....
lolz ....

~~ cold saturday ~~

Today is extremely cold ..It is a very windy day ~~ haha ...When I walked to sainburry for shopping ... I am thinking when r we going to reach because it is super cold and very windy... hahaha ....

We had tried to do soya milk drink... But the taste quite funny ... It doesn't like what we drink at terengganu . why ? Who can tell me the methods ? haha ... We tried for 3rd time only can fully success but ..... the taste still gone funny .. haha ..

1st time it is really shocked me because i stand beside the machine and talking with my aunt ... At 1st i am waiting for the machine to start but it does not start , it only boil the water .. then when i am talking with my aunt , it suddenly start and we close it not tight so the bean all drop to the water and the machine knife is go very fast ... and the sound was shocked me .. haha ...

2nd time .... It is fully success but we put bean too much ... so that it cannot fully do the bean .. haha .. the soya milk taste like the water we washed rice .. haha .. It is terrible taste ... While i taste the soya milk , my face turn into mr bean face .. haha .... and the colour like fish pond colour .. haha ...

3rd time...It is fully success and come out white in colour ... but the taste still very funny ..

It is quite fun to play new things ~~ hahaha ...

~ a very simple day ~~

Today i have a very simple feeling ... I don't worry about my studies anymore .... I think i had give up to worry about will i pass the exam ...I cannot predict can i answer the question or not .. but i know i cannot because at the moment i still cannot answer any question in the book .. I realise that i have no heart to study as well ..

few weeks left for me to study .... but i am still ...I hope the time pass faster and i hope the day do not come as well ...At the moment time is pass extremely fast but I want the time pass faster than now because i want to go back to Malaysia and meet the person i want to meet .. The reason i don't want is i have to attend the exam b4 i can back !!! This is the big problems for me ... I don't want to stuck at here because it can make me very trouble if i failed this subject .... haiz ~~~

Today i get shocked by a dog in the train !!! haha .. While the dog stand up , it is same tall with me and it is fat than me ... haha ... It is a extremely big dog but it is quite pretty or handsome dog... hahaha ... I don't know the dog is male or female .. hehe ... While i closed my eyes and listening song , the dog come to me . and jump up my leg ... I get shocked and jump up .. haha .. It is a very scary second ~~ haha ... I am scare for half an hour in the train because the dog stand beside me .... hahaha ... Got 1 lady told me it is okay .Don't have to scare .. haha .. but i am still scare .. I scare animal !! haha ...

Today i have an itchy mouth as well .. Maybe the weather is cold ... Winter is approaching !!! aiks ... This Sunday will be reverse by an hours .. aiks !! Extra 1 hours ... for what !! lolz .....

argh ~~~

Argh ~~~ my mouth is itchy ~~I think i want to have supper today ... hahaha ... As usual today went to class ... In the early morning , 1 guy get caught by the police ... why ? I don't know .. I only stand a side do kepo and watched the live ~~ hahaha .... Today is very windy ... Luckily i am not fly away .. haha ..

okay lah ... Going to have some foods ~~ hehehe ... My itchy mouth ~~~ aduh !! hehe ..

~~ Kelly is still the same lazy ~~

Today i am very lazy .. Super super super lazy ~~~ Today is the last weekday of this week i will be at home for whole day ... Tomorrow and friday i will have a very very boring class .. aiks ...

I am boring all the time ... At house , at college ... It is same super boring and tired ~~~~ aiks ....

I am very boring and took all those pictures ... hehe ...

~~ halo ~~

~~ blek ~~

~~~ bu bu ~~~

~~ i need you because my head is hurt ~~

~~ you're helpful ~~~

~~ Zam buk ~~ haha

~~ dreaming ... ~~

~~ I am sad ~~












~~ aiks ~~










~~ blur ~~








stupid ? hahaha ... i think i'm quite 599 ~~ haha ... My head is pain ... When is the pain want to go away ? aiks ... I am very pain .... aduh ~~~ sakit nya ~~~

~~ I remember ~~

I don't wanna close my eyes tonight ,
missing you make me cry ,
you love will give me strengths to carry on ,
you'll always be my mind and heart ,
so i don't wanna close my eyes tonight ,
i know it's just a miss match in time ... why ... oh ... why ....

Ah .... My head still very pain.. I cannot remember what had i studied today . This is a big problems for me because i had forget lots of things ... aiks ... I am really forgetful or because of the hurt ??? My head is pain every second , especially when i am using my brain ... I don't know what to do !!! aiks .. This few days i feel that i am sleepy all the time . I don't know why ... I had go to bed very early every night and wake up late but i still feel want to sleep all the time because my head is pain ... zzzz ....

Now only 9pm but i am very very sleepy .. aiks ... okay lah .. kelly is going to zzz ... good nitez ...


Headache !!! My head is hurt ... It is a badly hurt ...

Hurt badly ~~

~ uncountable pain ~

ah ... My head is very pain ... I can feel the pain is come from the injured . I think it is not a normal injured anymore . It is a serious injured . I had injured for 8 days . The pain is increase instead of decrease .. Now i will headache often but is only right hand side which is the injured place .. I can feel sometime the pain is the black youth press the things inside my head . Very very pain ... The injured side still the same , cannot touch it .. very pain .. how come will like that ?

I had lost some of the memory ... Is this because of the injured or i am forgetful ? What happen if is because of the injured ? Will i forget everything 1 day ? If i will ,what will happen next ? aiks ~~~

Will this cause anythings ?? aiks ~~~

Pain Pain Pain !!!!

~~ super lazy day ~~

Sunday ~~ Sunday ~~ Sunday ~~

Today i am using a stupid way to escape again . I tell myself i want to study a while but ..... at last i am lazy ... What i do whole day ? Eat , watched film , chatting and online ... Is this will bring me a very happy day ? It is not .. but i still continue this things .. aiks ... ~~

I had a lots of foods today . 10 pieces of biscuit with hot chocolate , 1 big chocolate croissants , 2 custard bread , 4 packets crisps , 2 sausages , nasi briyani , roast pork , boneless chicken , vegetables , chicken soup , apple juice , 2 brunch of grapes , 1 piece of pineapple ... How can i continue this type of days anymore ? but i cannot stop myself ... I don't know what to do anymore .. who can help me ? I want to stop this type of life . I want to be a happy gal ... I want to be a hardworking gal ... I want kuai kuai but ...... sorry oh this 2 weeks i am not kuai ... aiks !!

Today my headache is gone into serious condition ... I am blur sometime . I cant even stand straight because it is too pain ... Is this because of the injured of my head ? Hopefully all the things will be alright ..

I miss my lovely mummy very much ... I love her very much ... My heart is very painful . I am very scared . I am very stress ... I am a naughty gal ... I am not a good daughter ... I am not a good girl ... sorry ...

I am not kuai ~~ You know my attitude . Only you can make me feel i am full of happiness . You can make me feel happy . When you smile , i will feel happy .. Since the day i realise , i tell myself i will not turn back ... I hope we can continue full of happiness ... In my life who will be the important person ? Except my family members ~~ you ? Do you know who is the person ? I will keep who deeply in my hearts ? My heart have place to store somebody else ? Hope you will be happy and healthy always .. Hope to meet and hear you soon ~~~

Aiks ... I am missing ... I am in the forest now ... I don't know how to come out from the forest . This is a scary forest ... I am anxious , scare and stress ...

I hate myself ....

~~ escape !! escape !! escape !! ~~

kelly has a very ' useful ' brain . She is a very ' clever ' gal . >> This is use a good words to say about kelly .. If use the real words then it will be kelly has a useless brain , she is very stupid . why ??? Because her brain only works for her when she want to find ways to escape from the reality !!!! kelly please continue your clever !!!!!!! Continue until the day you regret . This is the good attitudes ... haiz ~~ My life is dark ... It is very 'beautiful' .... Good kelly . I can confirm they will be proud of you and give u a very big slap .

What can make kelly stop escape from the reality ? What can make kelly don't give up ? What can make kelly's heart come back ? What can make kelly feel that her life is full of happiness ? What can make kelly be a brave gal ? What can make kelly full of confidence ? Who can help kelly ? kelly need the person ...Where is the person go ? aiks ...

Today is a eating day for me . From morning eat until night ... haha ... I had 2 muffins , half of custard bread , cheese roll with cheese Coleslaw ,2 plate of nasi briyani , some grilled mixed , 1 semosa , 1 packet of crisps , 1 big Tupperware of keropok keping , 2 brunch of grapes , 2 pieces of pineapple , 1 plate of wedges and chips and chocolates ... I am very very full ... full until i feel all the foods are not delicious anymore .. I am scare to have some foods now ... hahaha ... I have took few pictures ...








~ cheese roll ~

~ 6 custard breads is inside my stomach , left 6 custard bread .....

This is the best way for me to forget the sadness and stress because i have no time to think ... Do you know why ? haha ... Because i an eating all the times ? haha .. I can feel i am going to crazy !!!

Today i cut my long hair ... Hope my hair does not look funny ~~~ hahahaa ...

muacks ~
This is all the pictures while i am thinking ~~ Sad , dreaming , stupid ....

~ My head is pain and i am very sleepy .. Hope i can sleep well tonight ~~ Hope tomorrow have a very beautiful day ~~

~ another week passed ! ~

Another week had passed but i'm still dreaming in the pass .... When i would like to be a brave gal and wake up ? Can i stop all of this from now onwards ? well , kelly will wake up late always .. stupid kelly .. haha ... Hope everything is not late .

As usual , go to college in the morning ... I have blueberry muffins and crisps for breakfast in the class . Sandwiches for lunch .. night ? aiya .. should know what ? haha ... fast foods .. fish & chips and kebab !!! haha ...











Is me Is me !! B4 go to college ... ah !! my hair is very very long now !! should cut it but my head is imbalance now . haiz .. 1 side have a very big ball . Can u all see it ? The ball is at right side .. hahaha ...










Is me ...Took it b4 i go to college ... While i'm high in took pictures .... I saw the clock and blur for a minutes because the time show 7.10am... haha .. I'm late !!!! I run to get my bag and go down to keep my breakfast in the bag then go to train station !! I'm super lucky !!! When i stand on the platform . They announce the train now is approaching at platform 1 . The train is carriages to Brighton . calling at luton airport parkway , harpenden , st alban , st pancras , faringdon , citi thamslink , London blackfriars , London bridge and so on ....... This is the train i need to go in . If i miss this train i have to wait an hour in the train station ... hahaha ....I got into the train and only left 1 sit ... I'm very lucky again because i'm the 1st 1 go in the train so the sit is mine !! huhu .... The train is full but i have a very comfortable place to sit ! hahahaha ... Next , i am sleeping in the train until the train approaching at London bridge !!! tired !!! hahaha ....

My class finished at 4.35 pm !!!! but the early train is 4.42 pm and another train will be 5.30pm ... I am lazy to wait for such a long time in the train station .So i rushed to the train station in 5 minutes instead of 20 minutes !!! Is it impossible ? haha . but i can do it .. I walk very fast and very tired but i never give up . When i reached the platform i should have to reach , i'm very tired and dizzy .. Then i got into the train and get the last sit again !! Today i'm super lucky !!! Is my lucky day ~~ hahaha ....

My head had pain for 1 week because of the injured !! It is extremely pain and pop up a very big ball there .. aiks !! Such a unlucky case !!! Hopefully it does not cause anythings ... haha ... I want the lucky is always stay beside me . Don't you ? haha ...

~~ midnight or early in the morning ~~

Now is 3am ... Is now midnight or early in the morning ? I cannot sleep well .. My head is very pain . I am very scare . I am living in stress .. I am escape from the reality ... i am dreaming !!

When can i stop all of this ? Isn't it until the day come ? Will it be too late ? I'm going to enjoy after this . Can i be a brave kelly and face what i have to face ? Can i be a confidence gal ? Can i stop all of these ? I want to stop all of these but ....... i cannot do it ....... Why ? What happen to myself ?

I think very long time ago but i cannot find the way that can help me and i have been escape what i have to do . Can i stop it ? Can i be brave and face it ? kelly please wake up ! you are not left lots of times ...

STOP !!!! STOP !!!! STOP !!!!

wake up and face it !!!

~~ thursday ~~

Just back from class ... I'm so tired ... I am waiting my delicious fast foods dinners so i decide to write a post since i have nothings to do ... My dinners are chips , nuggets , fish finger , wedges , chocolate cakes and fruits ...

Today i had chocolate pastries and chocolate b4 the class begin . I think this is a very delicious breakfast . Don't you ?

11 am ... This is 1st break ~~ I had 1 packet of walkers crisp . I had try to online in my class but it go funny n i feel i want to watch film instead of online so i just took my medicine . . haha ... I only watched for 15 minutes .... Don't worry , Of course i'm concentrate during the class . Don't think that i'm watching while tutorial .. haha .. I am concentrate every second while my tutor is inside the class but sometime i still will feel sleepy . hehe .. I am still a lazy kelly ~ hehe ..

Come to lunch break ... 1 pm ... 2nd break !!! Guess what i had ? Of course same ... fast foods .. haha .. nuggets , onion rings and chips ... I'm enjoying my lunch and watching superstar . haha ...








... onion rings , nuggets and chips ...













3pm .. last break b4 the class finish ..yippy ~~ That time i had crisps and chocolate again because i am very sleepy . My head is very very pain . The pain come from the place i knocked with the shower power . It is very pain . haiz ...

yeah , class finished .. yahoo ~~~ back home .. haha ... tired ~~ i had slept in the train and i did not realise the train had pass st pancras . While i wake up , i though it was pass Luton but luckily it is not . haha ... If not really 'pek chek' haha ...

okay lah .. I want to have my dinners now ... I will continue after i finish my dinner ... hehe ...

hoho .. I am back .. It is very delicious and full .. haha ...

Today i have think a lots of impossible case while i am in the train . If one day i have forget every single things . I am Amnesia . What is going to happen that time ? haha ... Is that good ? I can forget every single things and i can start my new life . haha .. but .... I don't want to forget some of my sweet memories .. Can i choose to forget some of the memories only ? I am very stupid rite ? I am thinking nonsense . haha ...

oh my aunt is back from CIMA events .. wah , My aunt brought a lots of foods from the events .. Sandwich , pasta and muffins .. This is my supper .. haha ... I am very full today ~!! 100% full ...

okay lah , going to ZZZ soon but of course i will do the things i usually do .. haha ...

~~ 3rd days of weekday ~~

Itchy mouth ~~

Today my mouth is very itchy ... haha ... I'm thinking of eating every second . I had fried mee , sausages , minced pork with kidney bean , 2 drumsticks , fries , wedges , nuggets , fish fingers , chocolate cake , 4 types of chocolate , 5 big brunches of grapes , 10 strawberries , 1 small orange and 1 apple ..

fried mee , 2 drumsticks , 2 sausages , minced pork with kidney beans .....Isn't it impossible i can finish it ? haha ....

2 fish fingers , 3 nuggets , wedges and fries ...

chocolates ~~~

No others pictures have been take because all is inside my stomach .. haha ... I'm so full ... hahaha ....

Ah !! My head ..
My head is very pain . I cannot touch my head ,cannot wash my hair with a little bit energy , cannot comb my hair ...... but i have to do all of this ... When i do all of this , i will bite my hand to bear the pain ... aduh .... This morning i'm blind for few minutes ..... I don't know why .... aiks ...will this come again ? I don't want to have this problems again .. I'm scare to stay in dark ~~

Will this cause me amnesia ? Is me going to be more happy after this ? Is the unlucky will go away after this ? I can escape from reality if i'm amnesia but i don't want to forget some of my dream ~~ haha ... Am i dreaming ? hahaha ... of course lah !! If i'm amnesia how come i will write this post ? hahaha ... I like to dreaming !! hehe ... After read this , are u going to take somethings to knocked me ? hahaha ....I think you want to ... hahaha ....I am the person like to dreaming and escape from the reality ~~~ hahaha ~~~

~~ need some laugh ?? ~~

Ways To Turn Down Unwanted Men !!!

H3 : Can I buy you a drink ?
Sh3 : Actually i rather to have the money .

H3 : I'm a photographer . I've been looking for a face like yours .
Sh3 : I'm a plastic surgeon . I've been looking for a face like yours .

H3 : Hi , Didn't we go on a date once ? Or was it twice ?
Sh3 : Must have been once , I never make the same mistake twice .

H3 : How did you get to be so beautiful ?
Sh3: I must have been given your share .

H3 : Will you go out with me this Saturday ?
Sh3 : Sorry , I'm having a headache this weekend .

H3 : Your face must turn a few heads .
Sh3 : And your face must turn a few stomachs .

H3 : Go on , don't be shy . Ask me out .
Sh3 : okay , get out .

H3 : I think i could make you very happy .

Sh3 : Why ? Are you leaving ?

H3 : What would you say if i asked you to marry me ?
Sh3 : Nothing , I can't talk and laugh at the same time .

H3 : Can i have your name ?
Sh3 : Why ? Don't you already have one ?

H3 : Shall we go see a movie ?
Sh3 : I have already seen it .

H3 : Where have you been all my life ?
Sh3 : Hiding from you .

H3 : Haven't I seen you some place before ?
Sh3 : Yes , That's why I don't go there anymore .

H3 : Is this seat empty ?
Sh3 : Yes , and this one will be if you sit down .

H3 : So, what do you do for a living ?
Sh3 : I'm a female impersonator .

H3 : Hey baby , what's your sign ?
Sh3 : Do not enter .

H3 : Your body is like a temple .
Sh3 : Sorry , there are no services today .

H3 : If i could see you naked . I'd die happily .
Sh3 : If i saw you naked , i'd probably die laughing .